Heaven and Earth Colliding

 With each moment passing so quickly, I found myself thinking about the next.

Preparing myself for the next overwhelming feeling

It surges my body,

Takes control of ever every thought

Every functioning part of my body

It floods in

With no regard of where I stand, sit, or lay down

With no remorse it floods in

I can feel her dropping lower and lower

Preparing to embrace me and the beauty of the world

I grip onto anything close enough

My body tries to escape the feeling

Its unlike anything I’ve ever felt before

It’s painful

But yet its beautiful at the same time

Its both things at once

What a reality of life

 

Deep breath

In

Out

And repeat

This isn’t forever

This is a blip it in the timeline of her life

And of mine

There is a purpose with every surge that comes

Her

She is the purpose

 

I can feel the strength buried deep inside of me arise when I know

Its me standing in between heaven and earth colliding

With a grit that was buried deep inside

Waiting for this very moment

I push

With everything I have

I push

Again

And again

The feeling of her dropping is surreal

I can feel every movement

Every moment I am right there

Focused on her

The realness of the fact that I have someone

Someone so special to Lord and to me

That is about to enter the world

Whether I think I’m ready or not

The reality is I am

And here she comes…

 

As she enters into this world I can feel the colliding of both worlds,

Heaven and earth met in that moment, and I was a part of that

I could feel his presence unlike anything I’ve ever felt before

He met us both there

He trusted me to nurture her,

To keep her safe

To point her to Christ

I was part of something big

Something so much bigger than giving birth

I was part of the Lord’s plan

Bring Azalea into this world through me

His plans for her started the moment she was conceived

I just got the privilege of bringing her into this world to bring it to fruition

 

So now

I soak her in

I rest in the fact that the Lord chose us for her

It was like I was reunited with someone I missed more than anything

but had never met in my life

A part of my heart was made whole that day

Holding Jesus’s beautiful creation on my chest

That I get the honor of raising

Wow

What a privilege it is to love her